If you listened to the Panty Selling podcast last Monday you’ll know that I was having a bit of an inner crisis around selling panties.
As I mentioned in the podcast, when I first started out I was only going to sell panties and then slowly but surely (or quickly but surely) broadened my selling horizons to include pictures, videos and a whole lot more!
It was obvious to me that by selling more I was able to make more money and of course that was the goal.
At the time I didn’t think too much of it but over time there was this little voice in my head telling me that “nice girls don’t do this”.
Call it internalised sexism and misogyny, call it shame, whatever it was/is it was pervading my work and definitely detracting from my ability to fully show up.
As I shared in the podcast, I don’t have an answer on how to deal with it but it certainly has influenced my decision to no longer share media content. Not for the foreseeable future anyway. Not until I figure out what it is in my head that’s telling me that I’m somehow doing something ‘wrong’.
What has been wonderful however is the feedback I’ve had from other sellers telling me that they too have experienced this inner narrative of judgement. And how they’ve dealt with that. It’s something I hope to cover on the forthcoming podcast.
Ultimately we all have an inner guidance system (or intuition) that tells us when something is off and once we’re sure it’s our judgement and not the judgement of something (or someone) outside of us then we make the decision on the best course of action.
And that’s all I have to say for today.
Stay tuned for more on this topic…